Why I Choose Feelings Over Figure

The scale and I? We’re enemies. One wrong meal, one off calibration, and suddenly my sense of self-worth nosedives because of a number. If I let that number dictate my journey, I’d have given up long ago. My weight can fluctuate by a kilo in a single day something it took me years to understand, and even longer to stop blaming myself for.

So now, I focus on how I feel. How my body moves. How walking feels. How roomy the chair is. How my clothes fit. That feeling that quiet confidence, that freedom is what success looks like to me.

The Rooftop That Changed Everything

I’ll never forget that sunny day in Milan. I was standing on a rooftop, surrounded by centuries-old beauty, and I couldn’t enjoy a second of it. I was in too much pain to explore, too drained to care. That moment broke me. What should have been a little break became the moment I gave up.

But rock bottom has a way of becoming a foundation.

Today, I have a new life. A different energy. A deeper appreciation. And I long to go back to that city not with regret, but with joy. Because this time, nothing will stop me from wandering those alleys and soaking in everything I once missed.

Letting Go of the Number

When the number on the scale isn’t where you expect it to be, it can overshadow progress in your well-being, and performance,

That number can rob you of the joy you’ve earned even when you’ve made real progress elsewhere. If stepping on a scale leaves you feeling frustrated, if it skews your food choices or clouds your mindset, it’s no longer a tool. It’s a burden.

So here’s what I pay attention to instead:

* The way I breathe after a walk

* The ease in my movement

* The comfort of my clothes

* The joy of showing up, every single day

That’s my measure of success. That’s the life I choose not ruled by numbers, but grounded in how I feel living it.